Blood Pigs- Saturday

Sigh* Today is halloween.... octb 31st...

the baby is moving like hell like a whole lot

im listening to Otep and it reminds me of so much

i was before!!

i was me...once

not im dehumanized...

im just one more android...robotically following the society's lines...

She says in one song

your suffering will free you

is that right?

cos im not willing to suffer much...

The Lord is my weapon by Otep

Eternal salvation suffers from inflation

Say what you need to, save your soul
But don't fuck with me,
I'm loosin' control
I'm so tired of this, so sick of you
My tongue is battered and bruised from all these attitudes

Teach me the magic of your sacred poems
Conjuring a voice of signs and omens
Prophecies got debris
The syllables and symbols breath
And as we climb, divine
To sacrifice our wounded minds
This awkward chance to seek, insanity
I can't save you, 'cause I hate me

The lord is my weapon
And I see him shoot pawns
Woman is the devil
Your god is a fraud
Everyone you knew
Everything you've ever done
Suffer for your freedom
Die by the law

The lord is my weapon
And I see him shoot pawns
Woman is the devil
Your god is a fraud
Everyone you knew
Everything you've ever done
Suffer for your freedom
Die by the law

Say what you need to save your soul
But leave your religion at the door
Smoking all of Christians weed
I'm sick of these weak anarchies
You see me as a place to make a bruise
But in my reality I'm a slave to the muse
Fuck these hypocrites, and together will fight

Tyranny of squares, squiggles unite

The lord is my weapon
And I see him shoot pawns
Woman is the devil
Your god is a fraud
Everyone you knew
Everything you've ever done
Suffer for your freedom
Die by the law

All you sinners
Blasphemers
Burn in the pit
Burn
Burn
Burn

The lord is my weapon
And I see him shoot pawns
Woman is the devil
Your god is a fraud
Everyone you knew
Everything you've ever done
Suffer for your freedom
Die by the law

Save me
Save me
Save me
Save me
Save me
Save me
Save me

White Rabbit- Jefferson Airplane

White Rabbit - Jefferson Airplane

One pill makes you larger
And one pill makes you small
And the ones that mother gives you
Don't do anything at all
Go ask Alice
When she's ten feet tall

And if you go chasing rabbits
And you know you're going to fall
Tell 'em a hookah smoking caterpillar
Has given you the call
Call Alice
When she was just small

When men on the chessboard
Get up and tell you where to go
And you've just had some kind of mushroom
And your mind is moving slow
Go ask Alice
I think she'll know

When logic and proportion
Have fallen sloppy dead
And the White Knight is talking backwards
And the Red Queen's "off with her head!"
Remember what the dormouse said;
"Keep YOUR HEAD
_______________
Keep your head"

Mary Jane by Janis Joplin♥

Now when I go to work, I work all day, Always turns out the same. When I bring home my hard-earned pay I spend my money all on mary jane. Mary jane, mary jane, lord, my mary jane.

Oh if a man should look tame now, mean and mature, They all turn out the same. cause they cant do nothing to make a man feel good Like my old mary jane. Mary jane, mary jane, lord, my mary jane.

Now I walk in the street now lookin for a friend One that can lend me some change. And he never questions my reason why, cause he too loves mary jane. Mary jane, mary jane, lord, my mary jane.

Well, I have known women that wanted no man, Some that wanted to stay. But I never knew what happened in this world Till I met up with mary jane, Mary jane, mary jane, lord my mary jane.

Oh, when Im feelin lonesome and Im feelin blue, Theres only one way to change. Now I walk down the street now lookin for a man, One that knows my mary jane, Mary jane, mary jane, lord my mary jane

--Stranger--

So she stood up from across the table and sat down next to me,

¨this way is more personal¨she said.

She was the first person in a long time who asked

how i was? and meant it

or at least that´s what i felt, maybe i don´t know

i was swamped in so much for toolong

i decided a stranger was the perfect listener.

My mouth seemed a spread river, floodied

my heart was bursting, she also asked about my life,

marriage, men, the reason why i became a rebel.

She even opened up a little, i felt confidence, i felt confident.

While i was exposing all my feelings i couldn´t look at her in the eye, it was obvious

yet i was open, i was still talking to a stranger.

¨Have anyone hurt you by telling you that?¨

¨No, no one has and i wouldn´t let them¨

The more the time ran from my clock

the more i spoke she paded me on the arm and said

¨I have to let you go¨

as i felt exposed i answered ¨Oh me too¨

¨No but i have to figure out what´s for dinner tonight¨

She picked her things up, i felt emotionally raped

and it wasn´t rape

i had consented it

i spoke my life to a stranger.

I Wish

I wish i could still call you friend

i wish today wasn´t so hot

and that you were not gone.

I wish we could still talk

and see you smile at my jokes

i wish i could tell you how im doing

and hear also how you´re doing.

I wish we could share 3 minutes

of time gone and space between us..

Oh but wishes are no more than that...

will this be my curse, to feel the guilt

that´s eating me every day?

I wish my wishes could come true

and call you my friend once more...

Viernes por la Tarde con Ian♥

Aqui estoy, entonces viernes por la tarde no tenia trabajo hoy...

encerrada en casa lavando ropa y comiendo lo que encuentre..

El chikitin esta moviendose como cosa loca parece que quiere salir pronto y yo...

lo espero con ansias!

Esta mañana habia una reunion en el trabajo acerca del ACOSO SEXUAL DE MAESTROS A ALMUNOS!! Y VICEVERSA!!

Por fin tocaron el tema!

Es que realmente en la institucion donde trabajo hay cierto amor extraño entre

profesores y alumnos! exageraciones!

El Educador eso es! debemos dar el buen ejemplo!

Ademas son menores de edad LEASE:

PELIGRO-DANGER- KEEP AWAY- ENTER UNDER YOUR OWN RISK!!

Sepa que lo van a demandar!!

eso de los menores es muy delicado!

Pasando a otra cosa! La vida ha cambiado mucho para mi,

desde que Ian♥ entro a mi vida...

es como ver el mundo de una forma completamente diferente a lo que

antes podia ser.

Es como mami decia, uno quiere como que no pasen cosa mala en el mundo

como que uno quiere cambiar el alrededor

uno piensa coño ya no voy a poder hacer esto o lo otro

pero realmente a uno no le importa tanto

por lo menos a las madres

los padres son otro caso..

que esta de mas decir que no puedo explicar...

Me hace tan feliz saber que tengo vida dentro de mi

me hace sonreir cuan el me despierta en la mañana para que

despierte al dormilon de su pai!

y me encanta sentir como juega con Adrian!

el pasa la mano por mi pansita y Ian lo persigue pateando..

es increible.

el otro dia dormia ligeramente y Adrian me llamo

como dormia no le hice caso...SEÑORE no pasaron 2 segundos

y el Bebo me pateo como qien dice MUJER TE LLAMA PAPI

ATIENDE!!

No se, me pongo a leer cosas que muchas personas han

experimentado cuando son madres por primera vez

y es que cada uno es diferente, aunque la emocion sea parecida...

Bueno, esta haciendo un calor del diablo!! parece que al infierno le subieron un piso

y ya el area en que vivimos de la tierra seria como la gerencia del infierno

por que ni el diablo aguanta ESTE MARDITO CALOR!!

Dejenme seguir en mis labores domesticas **dios el que me oye no me conoce

ni yo me reconosco**

Muchos se quejan pero la vida de casado no es mala si uno

sabe como llevarla, aunque el rubio aveces me saca de mi casilla

es como mami dice...yo conosco a mi loco

AMO A MI LOCO Y A MI LOKITO!♥

Number Nine #9

When i saw your face again
i couldn't recognize you ,
i saw someone different that day,
it just wasn't my friend.

I hope only some days you remember me
you think of me
and forgive me... =X
for what i put you through

THe way we met, Funny! :D
DO you remember?
You were just passing by
NOw that i think about it
you started my future...

If i had never met you
i've never had met him or
the love of my life so soon.

You gave me more than what i gave you

You Gave me :
A Friend,
A Secret Lover,
Protection from all that i suffered,
Hope
Nice Times
A Family
A Smile...

You were a true friend
you loved me " like Non of those bastards will ever do"
You cared for me , truly..

And i understand you too late,
and everyday it hurts.

I was your friend,
you wanted to be more than a friend
i took it too lightly when all happened
i left you alone though you never left me
when i most needed you...

I'm havinf our baby, mine and his
i'm "Married"
we moved in
you told me i would be happier
when i did those things.

But the truth is i can't forgive
myself for what i did.

And i know none of the words
i say are enough
or will ever be
you've erased me
but i can't erase you... ='(

You were my friend
but now i don't even
recognize your face...

THINGS I LOVED ABOUT YOU..

1. Your crazy eyes

2. Your Smile

3.Your Songs

4.Your Jokes

5.Your Skinny hands

6. Watching you bite your nails and telling you not to do so

7.Smoking with you in the afternoons

8. Talking on the phone with you for dead hours

9. Your Hugs...

I Really saw you like a big brother, now you're gone from me
i still try to see your pictures to see how well you're doing!
and im so happy that you look happy!
but my mistake hurts

Purple Dim Lights

En aquella tarde de otoño todo florecio,

parecia haberse esfumado la oscuridad,

Todo en aquel dia parecia mas claro.

Poso sus ojos ante el cielo

suplicando un dia mas como este

o bien que este fuese eterno!

Las luces se tornaron violeta

y todo cambio...